Friday, August 20, 2010

Day 4- Sibling Day

My parents had 3 children together, two boys and me. Well being the only girl growing up and the youngest, wasn’t that fun. I felt so alone because they were so much older than me and they were boys, I wasn’t allowed to play with them because they were “to rough”. As we are getting older I think all 3 of us can agree we are getting closer and we are realizing that this is our family, each other so we need to be there for each other.

My Brother Conrad is 11 years older than me, growing up he wasn’t around much because he lived with my grandparents, then went off to college. He had his first son Tyler when I was in middle school. That is when I think we started to get to know each other. I would go to his house and babysit. He married his wife Jamie, who I couldn’t imagine a better person, she is a loving and giving person who has always been there for me in my life. They also have a son named Trevor, a daughter named Natalie, and they have a one year old son named Tanner! I love my nieces and nephews so much! My brother has a lot of life experience and I look up to him and in many ways he has been there when my parents weren’t he is the one who encouraged me to go to college and when I found out I was pregnant he encouraged me to finish my degree. My brother has a big heart and I am so lucky to have him and his family in my life! I try to get back to visit them no matter where we are stationed at least once a year.

My Brother Paul is 4 years older than me, so growing up he was always to cool to hang out with his little sister. In high school he was a big football player and track runner. My brother decided the military and college weren’t for him. He has lived in a couple states, and has had a couple of good jobs. I would say my brother and I haven’t really been close until a few years ago. He has the personality which HE is always right and you cant tell him otherwise! I think I am the only one that really gets him, haha. I love my brother but sometimes I wish he wasn’t so thick headed. He has not settled down yet….maybe someday!

Day 3

Parents day-

Where to begin, My “father” is Hispanic (Mexican and Spanish) my grandparents came over when my dad was a few days old. His name was Raul but growing up he said he didn’t want the stereotyped of being Mexican so he wanted to be more “Americanized” so he changed his name to Paul and he didn’t carry on any of the Hispanic traditions, he didn’t even teach me Spanish. My mother’s family came to Michigan from Germany where they homesteaded and had a lot of acres on a farm that was pasted down for many many generations, until my grandpa couldn’t take care of it anymore and sold the farm and property. My moms family tried to keep there German traditions but threw the generations they lost touch with it. How awesome would it have been to grow up knowing Spanish and German?!

To sugar coat it, I didn’t have a great childhood, but I am sure I didn’t have the worst childhood either. My “father” was an adulterous, he was abusive, a liar and a controller. I say was because I haven’t talked to him since my graduation in high school nearly 6 years ago.

My mom she was never strong enough to face him and move on from him, looking back she was not there the way a mother should have been for her children.

While in my senior year of high school, my mother and I moved to my oldest brothers house, after I graduated from high school my mom went back to him and told me “your 18, your no longer my concern”. SO while in college I had NO communication with my parents, until one day I couldn’t take it anymore and I called my mom and by this time I had already had my daughter, I told her I was hurt that she had not tried to talk to me since. She actually ended up coming to my college graduation with my oldest brother. Then helped me move out to California where she stayed a week. That has been the most time in 6 years that she has spent with me. Haven’t really seen or talked to her since, because I don’t want a relationship with my “father” just my mom and he wont allow it!

SO what if anything did I learn from my childhood, well I guess to not be anything like my parents!! Honestly I am somewhat grateful to have had the life I have had, because that has made me who I am today! I PUT my self through college with no help from them. I have gotten married and have a beautiful daughter that honestly THEY are missing out on!!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Day 2- Crush day

The Crush day…..

Haha well this one just makes me chuckle….I am a married women but I guess there is nothing wrong with having a crush right?! Just like probably every female in the world I have a huge crush on Robert Pattinson and Taylor Lautner.

Now what makes a crush? Is it there personality, good looks, or what? For me what drew me to my husband was his beautiful blue eyes, cute butt, and witty personality.

30 days of release through writing, emotions, feelings and everything between….

30 days of release through writing, emotions, feelings and everything between….

Day 1 - Your Best Friend Day 2 - Your Crush Day 3 - Your Parents Day 4 - Your Sibling (or closest relative) Day 5 - Your Dreams Day 6 - A Stranger Day 7 - Your Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Love/Crush Day 8 - Your Favorite Internet Friend Day 9 - Someone You Wish You Could Meet Day 10 - Someone You Don’t Talk To As Much As You’d Like To Day 11 - A Deceased Person You Wish You Could Talk To Day 12 - The Person You Hate Most / Caused You A Lot Of Pain Day 13 - Someone You Wish Could Forgive You Day 14 - Someone You’ve Drifted Away From Day 15 - The Person You Miss The Most Day 16 - Someone That’s Not In Your State/Country Day 17 - Someone From Your Childhood Day 18 - The Person That You Wish You Could Be Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind - Good or Bad Day 20 - The One That Broke Your Heart The Hardest Day 21 - Someone You Judged By Your First Impression Day 22 - Someone You Want To Give A Second Chance To Day 23 - The Last Person You Kissed Day 24 - The Person That Gave You Your Favorite Memory Day 25 - The Person You Know That Is Going Through The Worst Of Times Day 26 - The Person You Made A Pinky Promise To Day 27 - The Friendliest Person You Knew For Only One Day Day 28 - Someone That Changed Your Life Day 29 - The Person That You Want To Tell Everything To, But You’re Too Afraid To Day 30 - Your Reflection In The Mirror


Day 1- Your Best Friend day-

Best friend what is the definition? Someone who has been there for many years as a shoulder to cry on? Someone who listens to you no matter what time it is, and no matter what they have going on the next day. I want to believe that people come into your life at different times to help you with the different obstacles in life. In High school I would say I had 4 best friends, these were people who I would run to when life just seemed to overwhelm me, they were each different people with different opinions, views and backgrounds but they all were people I couldn’t have imagined how my life would be different without them. In College I joined a sorority and I had a lot of sisters but I would truly call 3 of them best friends, again they were there at different parts of college when I needed them the most and they needed me. Now post college when Adam has been in the marine corps I have met a lot of people some of which are just acquaintances, but in this time of my life I would say I have 2 best friends that understand the demands of being married to the marine corps. But No matter where I have gone, what I have done in my life, there has been ONE person that has never turned his back on me, who has always told me to follow my dreams, to just be happy and to keep swimming. That person is my BEST friend Jeff, I know it is probably unusual to have a best friend who is a guy who isn’t your husband but it all started back 8+ years ago. I met Jeff in High school Algebra class he was, well shy and not that outgoing. Over sometime I got to know Jeff and we just clicked, I think I brought him out of his shell and he made me look at life in a different way. We never dated, that is because we had such a strong bond that neither of us wanted to break. Without even saying things we would get what the other person was trying to say or if the other was upset. Threw life’s many obstacles I have turned to Jeff, as he does me. I cant imagine my life without my best friend Jeff in it.