I know it has been months since my last update, but I can finally say we have more days behind us then ahead!!
May- Allie had her first big dance recital with costumes. She was front and center and stole the show. They had a daddy/daughter dance at the end and since daddy is deployed her Papa came and danced with her. Caleb has 3 bottom teeth and he started going to drop off daycare.
June- we gained another Angel in heaven, Adam's Grandmother passed away. School ended and we said goodbye to a few friends who PCS'ed (permanent change of station). We started playing with our friends down the street whose daddy is also on the MEU.
July-We drove to Michigan. On the way there we made many stops at different places. We stayed the night with a few friends and made many memories with my brother Conrad and his family. I became a godmother to my niece Victoria. Caleb started low crawling.
August- We drove back home, with ants in are car and baby Caleb had a serious eye infection & pink eye. what a fun ride!?! Allie started dance class for her 2nd year. Allie started kindergarten. Caleb is working on 2 top teeth. I started selling Scentsy, which I LOVE!
September- is just beginning but we have already filled it with many activities. Allie's birthday- we had a big celebration with friends and family at a horse farm, where all the kids had a blast with pony rides and games. Allie started gymnastics for the 2nd year in a row. I started volunteering at a couple places. Caleb can stand holding onto something and is very attached to his mommy and binky.
I am officially in Homecoming mode! Trying to get all the things done that I wanted to do do before Adam gets home. I just ordered Adam's Welcome home sign, I started working out 2 times day, and Kids and I are working on Spanish everyday! I have a potluck at my house once a month to try out new recipes.
Friday, September 7, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Staying busy...a blessing and a curse
As you may have noticed, I have not written a blog entry in a little over a month. We are finally adjusting to our life with out Adam/daddy...which means we are staying extremely busy. Staying busy helps me keep my mind off the pain of not having my husband, but it also helps keep the kids from thinking about where daddy is.
May is the last month for Ballet/tap and for gymnastics, in the 2nd week in June Alexis gets out of school. Along with appointments, playdates, organizing MEU outings, its been exhausting. Some days we have 3-4 things (activities) going on that day! Some days I wish we weren't so busy. However the day we don't have activities I find myself organizing/planning more for the next week.
Over the summer my big plans consist of cleaning out the house, getting rid of things we absolutely do not need and taking a drive back to my hometown with my 2 crazy kids!
May is the last month for Ballet/tap and for gymnastics, in the 2nd week in June Alexis gets out of school. Along with appointments, playdates, organizing MEU outings, its been exhausting. Some days we have 3-4 things (activities) going on that day! Some days I wish we weren't so busy. However the day we don't have activities I find myself organizing/planning more for the next week.
Over the summer my big plans consist of cleaning out the house, getting rid of things we absolutely do not need and taking a drive back to my hometown with my 2 crazy kids!
Friday, April 20, 2012
Being Apart....
When it comes to being apart Adam and I are no strangers....
The last 8 years in review
2004-2006 - Middle of August 2004- Adam and Paula meet and start dating in college, Christmas break 3 weeks long. summer break 3 months long.
2007- January- Adam enlisted into the USMC and leaves for boot camp for 12 weeks, all his training ends in late September 2007
2008- January-May Paula is in SC to finish college
2009- January- Adam is selected into the Officer program 10 weeks, summer/fall Adam is in the basic school which consumes his life, we got to see each other mainly on Sundays IF he didn't have to make up a class or do homework.
2010- Adam is in more training from November 2009-June2010
2011-January-September Adam is gone every couple months to training exercise for sometimes a couple days to weeks. October Adam starts leaving for work ups on his upcoming deployment gone 2 weeks to a month at a time.
2012- January-March- Adam is gone for weeks at a time for his last training before the deployment
March-? Adam is deployed
Each and every time we were apart, I was able to pick up the phone and call him. Talk to him, about whatever was on my mind. But this time i do not have the luxury. I can obviously deal with the distance, but not knowing if he is OK or when i will hear from him is what hurts the most. distance does make the heart grow founder but geeze I would love 1 full year without him being gone for days or months, but life in USMC= unlikely!
So I guess I just need to embrace it. Take this time (the longest time I have ever not worked since i was 14) and enjoy life. Enjoy and make a life long relationship with my kids, go and do different things that I wouldn't normally do. But it is hard to do those things when you are constantly worrying about your other half, or trying to deal with the stress of being a "single' parent.
The last 8 years in review
2004-2006 - Middle of August 2004- Adam and Paula meet and start dating in college, Christmas break 3 weeks long. summer break 3 months long.
2007- January- Adam enlisted into the USMC and leaves for boot camp for 12 weeks, all his training ends in late September 2007
2008- January-May Paula is in SC to finish college
2009- January- Adam is selected into the Officer program 10 weeks, summer/fall Adam is in the basic school which consumes his life, we got to see each other mainly on Sundays IF he didn't have to make up a class or do homework.
2010- Adam is in more training from November 2009-June2010
2011-January-September Adam is gone every couple months to training exercise for sometimes a couple days to weeks. October Adam starts leaving for work ups on his upcoming deployment gone 2 weeks to a month at a time.
2012- January-March- Adam is gone for weeks at a time for his last training before the deployment
March-? Adam is deployed
Each and every time we were apart, I was able to pick up the phone and call him. Talk to him, about whatever was on my mind. But this time i do not have the luxury. I can obviously deal with the distance, but not knowing if he is OK or when i will hear from him is what hurts the most. distance does make the heart grow founder but geeze I would love 1 full year without him being gone for days or months, but life in USMC= unlikely!
So I guess I just need to embrace it. Take this time (the longest time I have ever not worked since i was 14) and enjoy life. Enjoy and make a life long relationship with my kids, go and do different things that I wouldn't normally do. But it is hard to do those things when you are constantly worrying about your other half, or trying to deal with the stress of being a "single' parent.
Sunday, April 15, 2012
The what ifs.....
Just another Wednesday night at the Smith house, getting the kids ready for bed when all of a sudden....
I notice a message from a friend expressing her concern about the 24 MEU, and how they lost 2 men. IMMEDIATELY I start to research whats going on. Seconds later I find, http://www.militarytimes.com/news/2012/04/marine-morocco-embassy-says-2-killed-crash-041112/
I read it, then re-read it and my heart starts racing. I cant stop thinking about the last conversation I had with Adam. He was bummed out that he was NOT going to be able to get off the ship and train in Morocco. BUT the what ifs entered my mind and I panicked. I forward the link to my in-laws and a close friend. Reminder to all this is Adam and my first ever deployment. I put the kids in bed trying not to let on that anything is going on. As soon as I walk out of Allie's room I fell to my knees and started praying and through tears I begged, that Adam would be ok, safe and sound on the ship.
Thoughts all night while watching the news, talking with friends and researching for updates on-line, I could not help but think about the what ifs. What if Adam was needed to help train and was on that helicopter. What if he was one of those who are injured or deceased! WHAT IF?!! The thoughts just drove me crazy. Everyone just kept telling me "NO news is GOOD news". I could not get it out of my head. I was dreading the thought.....what if i heard my door bell ring!
The waiting game, hours felt like they were going by at a snails pace. I just wanted the media or the Marine corps to release the names of those involved in the crash. I wanted for my own selfish reasons to have some sense of relief. I WANTED more than anything an email or a phone call from my husband reassuring that he was safe and sound. BUT as I found out, ALL communication was shut down until families of those involved were notified.
When I finally woke up from what little sleep I did get, a friend of mine called and tried to re-assure me that Adam is ok. In my gut, i felt a little better and went about my birthday plans. I was sitting at lunch with some of my friends and I got the email I was waiting for. Then later that night, I got my call! To hear my husbands voice was the best feeling in the world. I am new to this whole deployment thing, but I HOPE I NEVER have to go thought the worry and wait again!
I hope all of you reading this will keep the families of those involved with crash in your prayers. Also for ALL the brave military members overseas!
I notice a message from a friend expressing her concern about the 24 MEU, and how they lost 2 men. IMMEDIATELY I start to research whats going on. Seconds later I find, http://www.militarytimes.com/news/2012/04/marine-morocco-embassy-says-2-killed-crash-041112/
I read it, then re-read it and my heart starts racing. I cant stop thinking about the last conversation I had with Adam. He was bummed out that he was NOT going to be able to get off the ship and train in Morocco. BUT the what ifs entered my mind and I panicked. I forward the link to my in-laws and a close friend. Reminder to all this is Adam and my first ever deployment. I put the kids in bed trying not to let on that anything is going on. As soon as I walk out of Allie's room I fell to my knees and started praying and through tears I begged, that Adam would be ok, safe and sound on the ship.
Thoughts all night while watching the news, talking with friends and researching for updates on-line, I could not help but think about the what ifs. What if Adam was needed to help train and was on that helicopter. What if he was one of those who are injured or deceased! WHAT IF?!! The thoughts just drove me crazy. Everyone just kept telling me "NO news is GOOD news". I could not get it out of my head. I was dreading the thought.....what if i heard my door bell ring!
The waiting game, hours felt like they were going by at a snails pace. I just wanted the media or the Marine corps to release the names of those involved in the crash. I wanted for my own selfish reasons to have some sense of relief. I WANTED more than anything an email or a phone call from my husband reassuring that he was safe and sound. BUT as I found out, ALL communication was shut down until families of those involved were notified.
When I finally woke up from what little sleep I did get, a friend of mine called and tried to re-assure me that Adam is ok. In my gut, i felt a little better and went about my birthday plans. I was sitting at lunch with some of my friends and I got the email I was waiting for. Then later that night, I got my call! To hear my husbands voice was the best feeling in the world. I am new to this whole deployment thing, but I HOPE I NEVER have to go thought the worry and wait again!
I hope all of you reading this will keep the families of those involved with crash in your prayers. Also for ALL the brave military members overseas!
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Technology
It is AMAZING to live in the day and time that we do! I am so happy to have communication with my husband at least once a day! We usually connect by email and we have talked on a couple phone calls. I get so excited when I hear the email notification ring on my phone. It is SO great to hear his voice, especially when I am having a no good, rotten day!! I'm not sure if once they get farther away if we wont be able to connect as much, but I am defiantly loving the communication right now!!
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