When I was in middle school I had a huge infatuation with dinosaurs and I wanted to be a paleontologist. But that faded when my brother had his first child. After many times of babysitting my nephew, I decided I wanted to be a elementary teacher. When my brother’s son was diagnosed with Autism, I decided I wanted to be a special education teacher.
After graduation from high school I told my family I wanted to enlist in the marine corps. Not having had anyone in our immediate family serve my family was very reluctant to let me join. Being 18, I TOLD them I was going to do it with or with out their consent. The night before I was to go to MEPS my brother talked me down from the idea, he told me to go to college (I had already been accepted to all the colleges I applied to) and if I still wanted to join the Marine Corps I should BUT as an officer. So when I went off to college that was my underline plan to join the Marine Corps as an officer after graduation.
While in college among joining a sorority, being in choir, the dance team, a member of the cross country team, the wrestling manager, being involved in Christian organizations, and working part time as a work study student and as a waitress (I was always extremely busy, that’s how I stayed organized to believe it or not) I declared my major to be Elementary education. After taking general psychology class I became very interested in it. So I made psychology my second major.
I was in my junior year of college and found out Adam and I were having a baby. I wanted more than anything to finish my degree (first in my immediate family to go, and graduate from college). Well if I wanted to have my cake and eat it too I had to make some hard choices. I wanted Adam and me to have the baby and live together, and I wanted to graduate college with both of my majors, BUT in order to do that I would have to stay an extra year due to finishing up all the required classes and student teaching. Not knowing what the future will hold I was reluctant to be away from my husband and keep him away from his daughter (I debated transferring to a college in California but not all of my credits would transfer), As I calculated it if I dropped my elementary education major ALL I would have to do is take summer classes to make up for missing the fall classes, come back after having the baby, and finish on time in the spring….so that’s what I did. It was a sacrifice I am glad I made, sure it was hard but it was extremely worth it.
Since graduating from college, getting married and having our beautiful daughter I still had my dream of joining the marine corps. To me it almost made so much sense to have both my husband and I serve our country, but it raised a HUGE debate with members of both of our families. I get that I will be away from my daughter, I get I will miss things that happen in her life… BUT to me I BELIEVE anyone who is mentally and physically fit should show their gratitude to all the men and women who have fought and gave the ultimate sacrifice in preserving what our for fathers did…OUR FREEDOM! To me that is the GREATEST honor of all, to proudly say “I served for our country”. To me it doesn’t matter what branch you serve, doesn’t matter what your MOS (or job) is, EVERY body in every branch and MOS serves as a piece to the whole picture.
I am currently un-sure what I want to do with my life. I was so sure, but having a child, and a husband who will be deployed or be in the field A LOT has altered what I WANT to do! My husband doesn’t necessarily like the idea of me being in the marines because he doesn’t want me to deploy and possibly get hurt, I get that, he also would like another child someday and me joining would put that on hold a while longer.
SO what to do? I could just sit at home and be a house mom and wife….NO! that is not the life for me, I am a self sufficient individual… I don’t ever want to RELY on my husband. No matter what I never want to feel like I NEED him, but to want him! I don’t want just any job, I want a CAREER…something I can move up in, something I like to do. The main difference between a job and career to me is: a job is something you have to do for the money, its something that you may not necessarily like, a career is something you choose….its your passion, it isn’t always easy but you are glad to have that career at the end of the day. well I must make a decision…. my life is slowly passing me by, and I am yet to decide whether to go back to school and get my masters or to pursue the marine corps or to find a happy medium 9-5pm job.
TO BE CONTINUED……at a later date:)
After graduation from high school I told my family I wanted to enlist in the marine corps. Not having had anyone in our immediate family serve my family was very reluctant to let me join. Being 18, I TOLD them I was going to do it with or with out their consent. The night before I was to go to MEPS my brother talked me down from the idea, he told me to go to college (I had already been accepted to all the colleges I applied to) and if I still wanted to join the Marine Corps I should BUT as an officer. So when I went off to college that was my underline plan to join the Marine Corps as an officer after graduation.
While in college among joining a sorority, being in choir, the dance team, a member of the cross country team, the wrestling manager, being involved in Christian organizations, and working part time as a work study student and as a waitress (I was always extremely busy, that’s how I stayed organized to believe it or not) I declared my major to be Elementary education. After taking general psychology class I became very interested in it. So I made psychology my second major.
I was in my junior year of college and found out Adam and I were having a baby. I wanted more than anything to finish my degree (first in my immediate family to go, and graduate from college). Well if I wanted to have my cake and eat it too I had to make some hard choices. I wanted Adam and me to have the baby and live together, and I wanted to graduate college with both of my majors, BUT in order to do that I would have to stay an extra year due to finishing up all the required classes and student teaching. Not knowing what the future will hold I was reluctant to be away from my husband and keep him away from his daughter (I debated transferring to a college in California but not all of my credits would transfer), As I calculated it if I dropped my elementary education major ALL I would have to do is take summer classes to make up for missing the fall classes, come back after having the baby, and finish on time in the spring….so that’s what I did. It was a sacrifice I am glad I made, sure it was hard but it was extremely worth it.
Since graduating from college, getting married and having our beautiful daughter I still had my dream of joining the marine corps. To me it almost made so much sense to have both my husband and I serve our country, but it raised a HUGE debate with members of both of our families. I get that I will be away from my daughter, I get I will miss things that happen in her life… BUT to me I BELIEVE anyone who is mentally and physically fit should show their gratitude to all the men and women who have fought and gave the ultimate sacrifice in preserving what our for fathers did…OUR FREEDOM! To me that is the GREATEST honor of all, to proudly say “I served for our country”. To me it doesn’t matter what branch you serve, doesn’t matter what your MOS (or job) is, EVERY body in every branch and MOS serves as a piece to the whole picture.
I am currently un-sure what I want to do with my life. I was so sure, but having a child, and a husband who will be deployed or be in the field A LOT has altered what I WANT to do! My husband doesn’t necessarily like the idea of me being in the marines because he doesn’t want me to deploy and possibly get hurt, I get that, he also would like another child someday and me joining would put that on hold a while longer.
SO what to do? I could just sit at home and be a house mom and wife….NO! that is not the life for me, I am a self sufficient individual… I don’t ever want to RELY on my husband. No matter what I never want to feel like I NEED him, but to want him! I don’t want just any job, I want a CAREER…something I can move up in, something I like to do. The main difference between a job and career to me is: a job is something you have to do for the money, its something that you may not necessarily like, a career is something you choose….its your passion, it isn’t always easy but you are glad to have that career at the end of the day. well I must make a decision…. my life is slowly passing me by, and I am yet to decide whether to go back to school and get my masters or to pursue the marine corps or to find a happy medium 9-5pm job.
TO BE CONTINUED……at a later date:)
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